I have been cheated on, lied to, and mistreated by so many people I called “close”.
I gave these people 100%. Never ONCE did I do anything to them.
And just now I learn that the person I gave 3 fucking years to, 3 long hardworking years. And they have a photo of them hooking up with some guy at a club.
My trust issues have trust issues
I feel physically ill.
I feel alone.
I feel so sick.
Disgusted.
I’m an idiot.
I’m a fucking no good fucking idiot.
Damn
Well, it seems to me that the best relationships - the ones that last - are frequently the ones that are rooted in friendship. You know, one day you look at the person and you see something more than you did the night before. Like a switch has been flicked somewhere. And the person who was just a friend is… suddenly the only person you can ever imagine yourself with.
What if I just disappeared, gone forever, no one would care, shit no one would even noticed I left.. LIFE IS POINTLESS IF YOU HAVE NOTHING TO LIFE FOR. And as of right now I feel like I have nothing.. I have a girlfriend that I barley get to see.. We hardly talk, and yea that may be my fault and I apologize if it is, but I still feel like im not your most important thing.. I want to just leave and never come back.. There’s nothing here for me anyways, well there is but there’s no chance of it ever working out anyways.. So one day I swear to all of you I AM going to disappear one day and never come back..
A great day decided to take a turn for the worst and now it’s horrible.
Keep your head up my love it will get better
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